My child is different

This is something what can say a lot of mothers. Especially mother, whose child has some kind of syndrome. For example, Down' syndrome.

Children are extra – special „thing“ . Simple, „thing“, which is depend on us, adults. And they change in accordance to us. Their direction is directed by us. By our acts. No matter, what kind of act it is.

It is valid for every child. Health, not health, or child, which has some special Gift from God. Gift which can complicate a life of parents, a little bit, or more, but at the same time it can enrich their life. Like another one , extra chromosome, or some special way of realizing the love for parents. I refer to two types of children. Those with Down's syndrome and those with Autism.

Both of these types of children are special. It can be hard to create some relationship with them, it can be more complicated, but it is not beyond possibility. It is sad, that if children are in one of these „groups“, they are automatic labeled. Yet they are personalities.

It is said , that children with Down's syndrome are full of love, which they share with everyone around them. That is true. Their creation and expression of emotions is boundless and positive in the most of cases, what is amazing. I understand it can be harder to communicate with them, live with them. Because we need a lot of patience and boundless love within us.

Few years ago, I had a chance to meet boy with this syndrome in the church. When we all began to shake our hands (offering the sign of peace), he did not shake hand of girl next to him, he embraced her. This girl was amazed, but after first moment she put big smile on her face and I smiled too. It was breathtaking how someone can express simple love so intensive. But not everyone was so understanding. Some people just stared, some people had denouncing look at their faces...He just did not deserve it.

On the other side, children with autism are absolutely contrary. They can hardly create some emotions and their parents suffers because of it. They love their children as much as every other parent but these children don't sense it. Or more precisely, they don't know how to receive these emotions, these feeling, they are not able to feel something like that. But if parents remain in their effort, there is possibility to create permanent feelings and this is big success and this love is the most powerful!

I am sorry, that these children are labeled by society and they are not always granted to be accepted. We are all different. Even when they are a little bit different, I think they should not be considered as outsiders. We have no right to decide, if they have right to be born because of their diagnose. They are not submen.

Every child needs protection, love and patience. They needs to feel they are loved and accepted. No matter, if these children are able to create feelings simple, or not. Maybe just this one difference is something, what makes them special. It can be always something, what we can not see in ourselves. What about start to discover this „something“ in us with them and instead of refusing them, let's help them to integrate and show them, they are useful for us all, for our society? 

Their love is in the end one of the strongest love ever. 

Do not forget, at the end of the day, they can teach you more than you can teach them, after all.

It's up on you

Months ago I decided to run my own blog with my thoughts which I was not sure I could put on another blog or web medium I was working for. It was decision to present what I was afraid to present or wasn't allowed to publicise , it was like bring things which occupied my mind to people. I wanted to display things and people who left truly message and mark on my life and my formation through last years.

You know, few years ago I went through realy hard times. I lost job, I lost long – time boyfriend, I lost everythng I depended on. I lost my faith in myself and I was pushed to start my life over. And this was that time when I was looking around for someone who would tell me how it could be, how it could look a like. Like...you know...it is not always simple.

Everyone has own life and way of living it. I understand that we all needs someone as a example. That is why I decided, nowadays, when is so much frustration around me, to put on my first – ever tryout of interview, or just simple conversation with someone abroad , someone across the ocean. It was with brilliant Vanessa Evigan. I have saved our email conversation and everything I was asking her and every answer from her until now and it truly helps me to look back at it and remind myself how great is life and how great are we all .

So I am here to share our Q&A from April , 2016. I hope it will help and put everyone of you back on the track in your life. Because you deserves the best.

It's funny how I started my own view on giving questions and most important for you in my opinion: THE LAST MESSAGE Vanessa GAVE for all of YOU

At first I wanna thank you for your help and good – will J. I try to make up questions what are not so common. Some of my thoughts are in ironic – fun way to keep people in good mood, not just ordinary reading. So from beginning:

I know you from movies, blogs, TV – series. I am big fan of series with comedian / comic background and sitcoms so it was not so hard to notice you. So...

1.Are you TV – viewer? Or was it common in your childhood or young age to watch sitcoms? How did you feel when you saw yourself in this position? Position of somebody who entertain people? (In many ways, not just in television, I used it just like example). Do you think you have sense of humor in your private life? What can entertain you personaly?


I didn’t watch a lot of TV growing up. My parents didn’t let me have a television in my room until I was 18. I remember getting more into watching TV when I was a little bit older. I always get uncomfortable when I have to watch myself on TV. I always feel like I “could have done better”. Lately the older I am getting the more I am confident in my work and am happy with my performance. I don’t have trouble entertaining myself at all! I would consider myself or a funny person more than a real serious person. I keep myself entertained by doing a lot of different things but mostly just keeping creative on a daily basis.

You seems to be really positive person to me. So..

2. What is your first thought you try to push in your head after waking up and getting up from your bed? Common in people mind is : Why have I wake up again and only thing what can help and change everything is coffee( like me, for example)

When I wake up in the morning I try to think of all the things I am grateful for. Like my family, my health, my friends, my relationship. I try to read something inspirational in the mornings or pray or doing meditation. We all have so much to be thankful for and sometimes it’s easy to forget that and be negative.

3.Were there some moments where you used to look above you and ( ironicaly) questionned: Why? Or „ Really?“And what did you do later with this moment? I ask because I know people who  goes meditate or just live that moment just because to show how they accept every test they gets and do you believe that in the end of every bad/hurting moment is act of strenghthening?

There are many moments where I ask myself “WHY”? Or why is the day going the way it is today. I try to again go back to gratitude when that happens. I have been through a lot of struggle in my life. Most people only see the good because I try to post positive messages for people to help uplift. I also try to be real with where I am in my life and on my journey. If i’m struggling I like to share that with people so if someone else is struggling they won’t feel alone.

4.What keeps you in good mood? 

 The things that keep me in a good mood are exercise, eating healthy, prayer, helping others, spending time with family and friends.

I see you are lover of nature and animals. So...

5.What place you visited, touched you the most? 

The place I visited that touched me most so far in my life was when I went to the Philippines last year. The village we spent most our days in was in La Jaja and it was magical. The children were the most incredible kids I have ever met and they melted my heart and I can’t wait to go back!

6.Is it hard to person who wants you to go with for some adventures,? Do you like adrenaline?

I love adventure and travel it does give me a rush!

7.What was your the biggest and precious experience in your life?

The most precious experience in my life so far was getting to spend my time helping the kids in the Philippines and then my travel to Thailand after that.

8.What animals do you like and have you some animal?

I love all animals. I would like to have a farm one day. I have 3 dogs in Nashville and our family dog in Los Angeles. There names are Dakota, Jesse, and Moose and in Los Angeles our dog is Marley.

 I think that every person in this world should be there for another people to help as much as he/ she can so I try to give other views to people on life and his funny sides, that every moment and experience has their funny side, or side what can make people stronger and more lighter and that nothing is so much bad or black. In the end of the day is another chance to wake up again. Same for kids, teenagers and  adults. I noticed your project LuvtheinnerU. I think too that with love everything seems to be easier and prettier. So..

9.Had you moment when you felt sad, unhappy, without love? Have you experience with no love to you personaly? I mean inside. Everyone has moments when they feel done. What did you do then? Did you met people who had complication to love not just others, but themselves alone? 

I started LuvtheinnerU because I want to help people find inner love for themselves. We are so often looking outward for love or putting it our appearance but that isn’t where the real love for yourself will ever come from, you have to find it from within. Learning that you are enough, that you are beautiful, learning to love the flaws about yourself. About 4 years ago, I had gone through a bad breakup that hurt me so bad I was desperate to not feel the pain anymore so I tried to turn it into a positive and work on myself and that is when I started LuvtheinnerU. I hope I can help people find that inner love for themselves.

10.How do you think they can change it? 

 I think the best way to learn to love yourself is first not to compare yourself to ANYONE. We are beautiful just as we are. I find the more I help others or do charity, it get’s me out of putting the focus on me and on to someone else. It takes time and practice. Doing positive affirmations is another way to really help change negative to positive.

Come to talk about another project you support. Boo2Bullying. I appreciate this. I think that bullying from teenagers to their clasmates or other kids is in increase, and for their growth and forming of their psychic is not good. So..

11.What do you find as the biggest influence on this kids or people who try to bully their friends or people who they do not like? How it can be stopped?

Boo2Bullying is a wonderful non profit that I support because I was bullied and it is a horrible thing that is happening everywhere to kids. It has to be stopped. Kids need to learn to love each other. We don’t all need to like each other but that does not mean that we have to be hurtful to anyone. We just choose not to be friends with certain people but come from a place of love always.

 In the end: What is the best therapy after long hard day for you? And...in case of your jewelry...I think it is really nice art and I admire it. Where do you get ideas? 

I think what helps me the most at the end of a long day is writing in a journal or reading positive books. Sitting for a few moments and taking alone time to quiet my mind. I like to make gratitude lists as often as possible. I think doing meditation can help as well. Sometimes even sitting on the couch with my love and our dogs and watching some of our favorites shows is a great way for me to unwind and let go of the day. LOTS OF WATER or tea! And rest!

Have you some message in your mind right now for people? (if not, do not worry. It is thing of reflection right now, not question)

I hope anyone reading this that is struggling can understand you are not alone. Actors, models, musicians, any one you may “look up to” we all have hard times and bad days and feel depressed. Understand that things we all may post are not always a direct reflection of how we are doing in our lives. You are not alone if you are struggling, I struggle a lot with sadness or depression, I also have a lot of wonderful days where I am happy, most those days are a choice, I choose to be happy and do good things for others and myself. Most important love yourself, give yourself a hug, and know everything is going to be ok :)

Keď už nádej dochádza...

V živote človeka sa vyskytnú situácie, kedy si už nevie doslova rady. Prídu chvíle, kedy klesáme na duchu, zúfame si.

 Ide o ťažké situácie, kedy si už myslíme, že niet pomoci a nádeje. Vedeli ste však, že pre tieto situácie existujú svätci?

Svätý Júda Tadeáš:

Svätý Júda Tadeáš bol apoštolom a príbuzným Pána Ježiša.

Socha Sv.Júdu Tadeáša v kostole v Bánovciach nad Bebravou

Napriek tomu, že o ňom veľa nevieme, zanechal nám po sebe aspoň nejaký záznam. Je ním (možno ) vlastnoručne napísaný List, ktorý je súčasťou kníh Svätého Písma. Priznajte sa, že ste netušili, o koho ide, keď te tento List čítali :). Veru ani ja nie...

Socha Sv.Júdu tadeáša v kostole Blumentál

V Novom Zákone sa objavuje len na jednom mieste: Evanjelium podľa Jána (14,22 - Posledná večera).
O jeho živote vieme aspoň čo - to. Po Nanebovstúpení Pána hlásal a šíril Evanjelium po Sýrii, Palestíne, Egypte a Mezopotámii. Domnienky sú, že mučenícku smrť podstúpil v Libanone, alebo Perzii.

Symbolom Svätého Júdu Tadeáša je Kyjak , alebo kopija(podstúpil nimi mučenícku smrť) a maličký obraz Pána Ježiša, keďže podľa Legendy práve Pánovou podobizňou uzdravil kráľa Abgara v Edesse.

Svätá Filoména 

Nazýva sa aj Dcérou Svetla.
Bola dcérou "vládcu malého štátu v Grécku"(Z výpovede sestry Marie Luisy di Gesú, ktorej táto "malá svätica" vyjavila podrobnosti o svojom živote v roku 1833). Jej rodičia boli bývalí pohania, ktorí sa veľmi dlhú dobu pokúšali o dieťatko, no nebolo im dopriate. Až po tom, čo prijali na radu lekára Publiusa kresťanstvo, sa im narodila vytúžená dcérka , ktorej dali meno Lumena(Svetlo).V 13 rokoch ju otec zasľúbil cisárovi Diokleciánovi za mneželku, čo Filoména odmietla.

Socha Svätej Filomény v kostole Blumentál, Bratislava

Napriek dlhému a hroznému týraniu a mučeniu nepodľahla. Nakoniec ju dal sťať, presne 10. augusta o 3.hodine popoludní, pravdepodobne v roku 302 po Kristovi. Jej symbolmi sú kotva, prípadne lano okolo krku, na ktorom bola priviazaná pri mučení.
Medzi jej najväčších (ak nie aj najväčší) ctiteľov patril farár z Arsu, svätý Ján Maria Vianney.

Svätá Rita 

Talianska rehoľníčka. Už ako mladé žieňa sa rozhodla úplne zasvätiť Bohu, ale nakoniec podľahla žiadosti rodičov a vydala sa. Manžel ju týral, no čím viac on zanedbával kresťanské povinnosti, o to viac sa ona do nich vkladala a plnila ich. Jej manžel sa nakonie stal obeťou vraždy , čo spôsobilo potrebu pomsty u jej synov, ktorí chceli vraha svojho otca zabiť. Sv. Rita sa modlila, aby jej synovia boli od tohto hrozného činu ustrážení. Obaja sa nakoniec stali obeťou epidémie. 
Po smrti oboch synov, aj manžela, nakoniec vstúpila k augustiniánkam v Cascii. Bola známa aj ako stigmatička, objavila sa jej rana na hlave ako mal aj náš Spasoteľ po tŕňovej korune. Do smrti ju skrývala,aby nevyvolala senzáciu.
Zomrela 22. mája 1457 ako 76 ročná a po 40 rokoch rehoľného života.
Evidencie o zázrakoch na jej príhovor sa začali vynárať hneď po jej smrti. Jedným z prvých prípadov, kedy došlo k uzdraveniu na jej príhovor, sa udial tesne po jej smrti. Miestny stolár trpel deformáciou ruky, čo mu spôsobovalo, že nemohol ďalej vykonávať svoju profesiu. Modlil sa pri vystavenom tele Sv.Rity, aby sa mu ruka na jej príhovor uzdravila. Sľúbil, že ak sa tak udeje, vyrobí jej truhlu. Stalo sa. Odvtedy počet zázrakov , ktoré sa udiali na príhovor Sv.Rity len stúpol a tento nárast je prítomný až dodnes.

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Svätý Expedit

Veľmi veľa sa o ňom nehovorí a veru ani nevie, ale známe je, že bol vojakom , veliteľom légie.
Pravdepodobne sa narodil v Arménsku, teda v krajine, ktorá bola prvou, ktorá prijala kresťanskú vieru (aj zásluhou Sv.Júdu Tadeáša). Známe je, že keď mal on a jeho légia vzdať obetu rímskym bohom pred bitkou,čo nastolil cisár Marcus Aurelius, odmietol to on aj jeho vojaci a modlili sa k Bohu,  a práve v tej chvíli sa rozpútala búrka, hromy, blesky, preto jeho vojsko nazvali Hromová légia. Nepriateľ bol razom premožený. Cisár Dioklecián, nástupca Marca Aurelia už toľko pochopenia nemal a začal proti kresťanom zbojiť. Rozkázal zničiť všetky kresťanské chrámy. Expedit jeden takýto rozkaz strhol z múru a roztrhal, za čo utrpel mučenícku smrť. Spolu sním popravili aj iných 5 mučeníkov.
V deň, kedy sa rozhodol stať sa kresťanom sa mu diabol zjavil v podobe havrana a snažil sa ho prehovoriť, aby svoje rozhodnutie preložil na iný deň. On rozmliaždil jeho hlavu a povedal: "Stanem sa kresťanom ešte dnes"
Je patrónom moreplavcov, obchodníkov, študentov a skúšajúcich a okrem toho je pomocníkom v naliehavých situáciach , veciach, ktoré nestrpia odklad
Je symbolom vzoprenia sa satanskému pokúšaniu odkladať veci na ďalšie dni, čo v konečnom dôsledku veľa krát znamená na neurčito až nikdy. Bol to človek konajúci rozhodne a bez odkladania.
Nazýva sa aj svätcom jedenástej hodiny, čiže biblickej poslednej hodiny.

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Svätý Ch/Šarbel

Libanonský svätec. Známy nespočetnými uzdraveniami a vyliečením mnohých neduhov každého, ktorý sa k nemu pomodlí , najmä pri jeho hrobe. (Inak jeho obraz možno vidieť aj v Kostole Navštívenia Panny Márie v Bratislave)
Narodil sa ako Youssef Antoun Makhlouf v LIbanone. Čoskoro sa stal maronitským mníchom . Známy bol svojou tichosťou, pokorou a životom v samote.
Zomrel 24. decembra 1898. Hovorí sa, že keď jeho telo prenášali, snehová fujavica, ktorá trápila ľudí, razom prestala. Pár mesiacov po jeho smrti bolo vidno nad jeho hrobom žiarivé svetlo a jeho telo ostalo neporušené. Zaujímavé je, že takto vydržalo dlhé roky až do roku 1965, kedy bol blahorčený. Za svätého bol vyhlásený v roku 1977, pápežom Pavlom VI.

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Osvieti, či neosvieti? Ako Duch Svätý ovplyvňuje ľudskú tvorivosť?

Aj vám sa niekedy stáva, že sa vám v hlave vyrojí nápad, myšlienka, o ktorej si myslíte, že je priam ideálna na spracovanie, už už máte plán, ale nie a nie nájsť vhodné slová, či vhodnú následnosť? Aj vám sa občas nedarí usporiadať tieto myšlienky, či ich správne pomenovať? Uf. Mne sa to stáva. Najmä v časoch tvorivej krízy. Je to tak povediac stav, kedy by som aj mala o čom rozprávať, písať, ale neviem nájsť na to vhodné slovné prostriedky. Proste, myšlienka v hlave nie a nie ísť na "papier". Čo robiť vtedy?
Na toto sa nehľadá odpoveď príliš ťažko. Pre niekoho možno aj hej.
Nedávno som dočítala celkom zaujímavú knihu , od Joanny Batkiewicz - Brožekovej, ktorá krásne zosumarizovala Dielo o Pátrovi Dolindovi Ruotolovi. V nej sa okrem iného dozvedám, že Páter trpel , povedzme, niečím podobným, ako ja. Nie vždy vedel nájsť na všetko odpoveď. Napriek nízkej mienke, ktorú o sebe mal, však dokázal vyprodukovať kvantum kníh, textov a to všetko bez toho, aby mal k tomu najvyššie vzdelanie. Čo robil? Modlil sa k Panne Márii.
A nemusím ísť ani tak ďaleko do histórie, mám tu príklad aj celkom mladý. Jeremy Riddle - textár, pastor. Zachytila som s ním video, na ktorom vykladá o procese tvorby textov. Čo robil? Modlil sa.
Čo majú obaja spoločné? Modlitbu. Obaja pochopili, že bez Pomoci a "osvietenia" Duchom Svätým pri tvorbe nič nevytvoria.
Nie je neznámym výrok, ktorý používali najmä naše mamy a babky: Čo ťa osvietil Duch Svätý?
Taká milá "povedačka" a koľko pravdy v sebe má . Čím som staršia, tým viac vnímam prínos práve tohto Ducha pre tvorbu.
Ako dokáže Duch Svätý ovplyvniť proces tvorby? Odpoveď nám ponúka samotné Sväté Písmo.

Ježiš hovorí: Keď vás budú vodiť do synagóg, pred úrady a vrchnosti, nestarajte sa, ako a čím sa budete brániť alebo čo budete hovoriť, lebo Duch Svätý vás v tú hodinu poučí, čo treba hovoriť. (Lk 12, 11 - 12)

Čo nám hovorí tento výrok? Že napriek tomu, že nevieme vždy, čo máme hovoriť, v tomto našom prípade čo písať, respektíve ako písať, stále tu je Duch Svätý, ktorý nám to napovie.
Ako inak si môžeme ďalej vysvetliť Skutky Apoštolov, kde sa píše:

 Ukázali sa im akoby ohnivé jazyky rozdelené tak, že na každom z nich spočinul jeden. Všetkých naplnil Duch Svätý a začali hovoriť inými jazykmi, ako im Duch dával hovoriť.(Sk 2, 3 - 4)

Môžeme vidieť, že Duch Svätý vážne vie pomôcť pri tvorbe a vhodnom vyjadrovaní sa. Ako to funguje? Tu pomôže najmä viera. A, ako dokazujú vyššie spomenutí 2 páni, modlitba.
Niekedy stačí jednoduché utíšenie sa, chvíľka osamote a načúvanie. Pravdou totiž je, že On hovorí k nám neustále, len otázkou je: Počúvame?

Veľa zdaru pri ďalšej tvorbe :)

 

 Plus, prikladám aj video s Jeremy Riddle o tom, ako sa mu píšu texty :)

Manuál pre život

Mnoho návodov, mnohon pozorovaní, mnoho názorov. Ktoré sú najlepšie? Tie, ktoré sedia priamo na teba.

Manuál pre život si dokáže vytvoriť každý sám. Občas však potrebujeme nakopnúť a to som veľakrát potrebovala aj ja. Nájsť svoju cestu . A k tomu mi dopomohli mnohí iní, ktorí sa tiež hľadali a práve vďaka nim a ich zisteniam som začala pozorovať a "študovať" seba samu aj ja. Výsledok? Dostala som sa k vlastnému návodu, ako mám svoj život žiť.
Rozhodla som sa, že ho posuniem ďalej. Možno je tu niekde niekto, kto potrebuje presne takýto "kopanec". Veľa šťastia!

1.Mnohí ľudia okolo teba budú chcieť, aby si bol perfektný. Aby si žil život, ktorý oni žijú. Nepovedia ti, že ho môžeš žiť inak. Kvôli vlastnému strachu z niečoho nového ťa budú držať v strese a depresii. Zastav to a v kľude si povedz: Nemusím žiť to, čo chcú, aby som žil. Mám  nárok zmeniť pohľad, názor kedykoľvek a akokoľvek chcem.

2.Nie si ani nič viac, ani nič menej, než druhí. Buď k sebe pravdivý. Máš predsa vlastnú hodnotu!

3.S láskavosťou, milosťou a úsmevom to dotiahneš ďalej, než s hnevom.

4.Prestaň sa obviňovať za všetko nesprávne, čo urobíš.. Si človek. Nie robot!

5.Ak niečo chceš urobiť, proste to urob. „Neskôr“ by nemalo byť v tvojom každodennom slovníku.

6.Nauč sa komunikovať. Ak ti je niekoho ľúto, nazýva sa to humánnosť. Nauč sa názory a myšlienky, či postoje vyjadrovať bez toho, aby si niekoho ranil. Bude sa ti žiť ľahšie.

7.Nazeraj na seba reálne. Nie pohľadom niekoho iného. Ostatní ťa vidia inak, ako ty. Na ich názory vzhliadaj s úctou a rešpektom, ale svoj pohľad na seba maj na prvom mieste.

8.Nie každý má rovnaký názor, ako ty. To však neznamená, že ten tvoj je správny a jeho nesprávny. Jednoducho sme každý iný a máme rôzne pohľady na život. Hovorím to preto, lebo mnohí ľudia sa cítia dotknutí, ak ich niekto skritizuje. Vtedy ide ich zmýšľanie nadol. Nerobte to, prosím!

9.Neexistuje pravidlo, podľa ktorého musíš mať ospravedlnenie a opodstatnenie pre všetko, čo robíš.

10. Keď sežereš celú čokoládu v dome, neobviňuj sa. Mali byť chronty doma, nie sa flákať :)

A posledné, ktoré, si myslím, má najväčšiu váhu a dotýka sa všetkých predchádzajúcich: 

„Urobte všetko, čo vám povie“ (Jn 2, 5)

Not Easter worshipper/Just few words

Attacks in Sri Lanka from 2 days ago left wounds which can not be healed so soon.....People who were killed and pain their killers left is incurable for a very long time. If not forever. 
Families who lost their children, parents, entire family will gather strenght really long .
Reactions to these attacks were immediate and we can feel pain in some words and this pain is common for us all, catholics and non - catholics along.
But some reactions, and I want speak about two which touched me and somehow shook me are from Mr.Obama and Mrs.Clinton. I understand their effort to pay a compassion to people who died but what they called them is unacceptable.
So dear Mr.Obama and Mrs. Clinton. I appreciate your remorse over victims but what you called them is in my opinion dishonour of them. They were persecuted because of their faith. They were killed because they never left the Truth. They , unlike you, were not afraid of showing honour to Christ in public, never betrayed Him. Even in country which is not christian. They deserves respect, not ironic comments.
They and we are not Easter worshippers. Please understand that Christian is not curse, nor abuse word. I get that today is society trying to be liberal, tolerant, but if you can name victims of attacks on Muslim and Jewish, or Hindu people by their true name, please do it with us too.
We are not ashamed of our faith. We are not worshippers. We are people of The Truth. There is no name for this Truth than Jesus Christ. We are not Easter worshippers. We are followers of Truth named Jesus Christ.
Our faith is not about worship (just, even too), our faith is about Life. No matter how hard you try , you will never destroy the fact that Truth has its own name and you can do and will do whatever you want , this Truth will always be named and will always be true. Christian is our common name and please, respect it.

Prayer of the soul

Just few people knows all saints or people on the way to sainthood. One of the people, who got on this way for his works and sacrifice is Padre Dolindo Ruotolo, italian priest, whose name was well known in 20th century in Italy and who was according Padre Pio from Pietrelcina saint priest. 


Padre Dolindo wrote many books, helped many people, bestowed his everything to the poor, gave unforgettably speaches and homilies and was for the majority of his life banned from serving the Mass. He was later known for not just his work , but now, when he is in process of beatification, we knows about his conversations with Jesus and Mother Mary .

Besides all these things Dolindo wrote , inspired by Holy Ghost, one really emotional prayer, called Jesus to the soul.... and according to one of his spiritual children, Mr.Umberto Cervo this prayer was always sung by Padre Dolindo before Nativity in the church.

Padre Dolindo was well known for his absolutely submission to Jesus and beside Novene of Submission, we have this prayer, which knows just few people and officialy is known maybe just in Italy.

This prayer was written in Napoli, on the 7th of January in 1958. I want to share it with you.In time of anxiety and fear, just close your eyes and pray. Here:

Jesus to the soul:

Close your burnt out eyes full of tears, close them on my love and asleep on my heart.

When you look around yourself , you wander, you suffer...Do not lose yourself in your pain, just fell asleep on my heart.

If you listen to what persuade you your weak nature and temptations, you do not rest on me. 

Close your ears, listen just to my voice of love, which search for satisfaction in your love and let yourself rest in my heart

If you have no convenient cradle, you have not strown your bed, how can you sleep? The ground is hard and it wound you a lot. Save your soul comfortably into my mercy,asleep yourself on  my heart and believe just me. 

If light is artificial, how can you close your  eyelids  tired because of pain?

Put out the light of your thoughts, put out the lamps of your criterias, which shed shadows of fear on you. Look at everything through sweet darkness of faith and that little calm clematis rock you to sleep on my heart.

If you cry, how can you fell asleep? Cover yourself with my warm will...Cuddle yourself in me and sleep on my heart.

Do you want to sing a lullaby to me? If you scream and you have no patience in suffering, how can I fell asleep?...I leap everytime I hear your appeal and crying and my heart blast from the pain.

Do you want to sing a lullaby to me, the sacrifice of my love? Close the windows, through which your unrest and confusion cross like whirling wind and I put myself for rest in your 

heartˈs quiet submission to God.

Do you want to sing a lullaby to me, my fiancée? Every mistake you do tear veil of peace from yourself and cover you with armour which haunts me. And thatˈs when I can ˈt sleep.  

Smooth me with your goodness without grieve, rejoice me with your sanctification of your body  and you will fetch out bruks pikes , which are hurting me and scrape me, from my cradle. Look at me  inside your suffering with love full of peace , look like I would look at you and still look from my hard cradles. Let me asleep inside of you. 

Sing to me a lullaby from love and I will fell asleep , quiet, in your heart...

 

source: Joanna Batkiewicz - Brožek: Jezu, Ty się tym zajmij”

Unplanned – neplánované bloknutý

Je tomu pár dní, čo do kín po celej USA prišiel film s dosť citlivou tematikou, ktorá spoločnosť skôr rozdeľuje, ako spája. Volá sa Unplanned. Ešte ani neuzrel svetlo sveta a už naštartoval ostré diskusie, Pro – Life a Pro – Choice sa dostali znovu do stretu. Ani ten Zákon umožňujúci potraty v 8. mesiaci, schválený v januári v New Yorku, neostal nepovšimnutí a prilial len olej do ohňa, ako sa vraví...

Najzaujímavejšie je, že sa k tomuto pre mnohých nešťastnému zákonu, začali ozývať aj ľudia, ktorí sa dovtedy príliš na tému potratov nevyjadrovali.

Film Unplanned teda prišiel práve v tú citlivú dobu a dosť pochybujem, že to tvorcovia plánovali, keďže samotný námet a film bol spracovaný niekoľko mesiacov predtým a produkcia dátum uvedenia oznámila oveľa skôr...

Film je dielom niekdajšej pracovníčky Planned Parenthood , Abby Johnson. Abby sa jednoducho rozhodla svoje skúsenosti pri sprostredkúvaní potratov preniesť na filmové plátno.

Nie je šokujúce ani tak to, že sa taký film dostal na filmové plátna, veď dnes vraj panuje vo svete sloboda slova, prejavu, názoru. Je tomu však tak?

Pár týždňov pred uvedením dostal film R. Teda písmeno, ktoré značí, že film obsahuje scény násilné, nevhodné pre deti do 17 rokov a tak napriek tomu, že sa vo filme objavia prípady, kedy k potratu pristúpili dievčatá aj v tejto vekovej skupine, bez prítomnosti rodiča, akosi ich rovesníčky už nemajú umožnené, aby si to celé pozreli bez rodičov. Necítiť tu trošku pokrytectvo? Že s niečím nesúhlasím neznamená, že mám právo zasahovať a zakazovať druhým, aby súhlasili. A aby sa prejavili.

Zahanbiť sa nedali ani sociálne siete. Pár dní po uvedení na filmové plátna dostala Oficiálna stránka filmu na Twitteri stopku. Až po nátlaku verejnosti túto stopku zrušili a  účet odvtedy dosiahol väčší počet sledovateľov, ako má samotné Planned Parenthood.

Ja sa len pýtam: Kde je tá sloboda slova, ktorú tak ostro všetci prezentujú? Nepodkopala si spoločnosť MPAA, rozhodujúca o vhodnosti filmov pre mládež vlastné nohy, keď jediným písmenom uznala, že samotné akty zobrazujúce vo filme sú nevhodné pre maloletých a že obsahujú násilie? Nepotvrdila tým vlastne , že samotná realita je nevhodná a násilná?

A tak je dnes napriek úsiliu samého Planned Parenthood, ktorý v minulosti s Abby Johnson viedol súdne spory, spolkov, ktoré sa hlásia k slobode prejavu a uznaniu tohto práva aj iným, majú v rukách moc, prostriedky, film dosahuje v USA úspechy. V rebríčku návštevnosti dosiahol zatiaľ 4. miesto a to napriek tomu, že ho možno vidieť až po dosiahnutí dospelosti.

Ja len, že každá minca má dve strany. Keď dovoľujeme prejaviť sa jednej, nemali by sme dať šancu na prezentovanie a slovo aj tej druhej?

A keď už tak bojujeme za práva žien a ich realizáciu, prečo im podkopávame nohy a snažíme sa rozkazovať im, čo smú a čo nesmú vidieť, nehľadiac na vekovú skupinu? Nie je to mierne totalitárne?

"Ožite"

Je veľa piesní, ktoré dokážeme počúvať stále dookola a dookola a neomrzia nás. Tiež mám také, viď nižšie :)

Pravidelne si púšťam pár piesní, ktoré ma dokážu nakopnúť a pozdvihnúť moju myseľ. Jednou z nich je aj pieseň Centric worship s Lauren Daigle, Come Alive (Dry Bones)

Spieva sa v nej: Voláme všetky vyschnuté kosti, aby ožili. Voláme všetky mŕtve srdcia, aby ožili. Z popola povstane armáda, hľa. Voláme všetky vyschnuté kosti, aby ožili.

Ona je to pieseň, ktorá nám vypovedá o znovuobjavení a vnútornom oživení. Osobne sa dokážem pri nej aj ukľudniť, aj povzniesť. Prikladám vám link na video, príjemný deň :)

Centric Worship feat Lauren Daigle

"Návraty"

Sú situácie, najmä citové okamihy, kedy sa mi vracajú niektoré pocitové míľniky. Akoby sa to, čo som už niekedy pociťovala, cítila, prežila, vracia späť. Začínam uvažovať, či to Tata nerobí schválne. Že chce, aby som to, v čom som kedysi zlyhala, skúsila ešte raz. Neuľahčuje mi to však. Prežívam znovu to isté, len tentoraz bez upadnutia. Čím to je ale? Na toto možno existuje len tá odpoveď, že je to tým, že sa to už stalo, len v inej podobe a v inom období. Akoby chcel Tatino dosiahnuť u mňa ten okamih, kedy sa pozriem a poviem si: Wow, toto som fakt zvládla? Proste jednoducho akoby som sa mala znovu preniesť cez nejakú bolestnú situáciu, v ktorej som už bola, len si viac všímam veci, ktoré som predtým nevidela. Doslova so mnou bojuje s mojimi démonmi cez retrospektívu. Akoby povedal: Tak, teraz si silnejšia, poď, tentoraz to zvládneš lepšie. Vážne som šťastná, že tie okamihy sa vracajú. Nie preto, že by som trpela, a ja sa v tom vyžívala, to nie, ale preto, že v každom z nich spoznávam svoje najsilnejšie aj najslabšie stránky a každým ďalším pokusom prejsť cez tie momenty mám jasnejší a jasnejší pohľad. Ako je pravda, že to bolí fakt že veľmi, áno, trpím, ale to poznanie to utrpenie zľahčuje. A fakt ma teší a zahrieva pri srdci, že po tých rokoch vidím, že vážne v tých bojoch Ja verzus Ja nie som sama. Ono je to tak, že ten Zlý sa pokúša človeka dostať do stavu úzkosti a beznádeje, lebo ukáže len na to, v čom človek zlyhal a nechá ho topiť sa v tom. A s Tatinom je to večne o tom, že v tomto boji Zlý verzus Dobrý vždy víťazí len ten Dobrý. To je základ uvedomiť si. Že zlyhanie je cesta k sebapoznaniu a vždy buď vďačný, keď zlyháš. Lebo to znamená, že tvoja cesta k tebe ešte neskončila. Žiadne zlyhanie nie je koncom. Ale začiatkom.

Unplanned planned

Just 1 week ago Unplanned movie hit theatres in USA. Maybe controversial for someone, maybe not. This movie stirred the waters. 

The story about experiences of Abby Johnson touched the hearts of everyone, no matter if you are Pro - Life or Pro - Choice and maybe it will change your heart, if you are in second group. I think it will.

Just few people knows how it works in this industry. 

Few weeks before its premiere Unplanned got R - Rating from MPAA, which is given to movies describing as a violent, inclusive bloody, violent scenes, improperly for teenagers. It sounds to me somehow hypocritical, that even if movie portrays different cases of girls, who went for abortion and were maybe not even 16 or 17 years old in reality, their peers are banned from seeing this reality. And even if girl undergoing abortion is able to go there without her parents, her peers are banned from even seeing this without parents. No. This is not hypocritical. It is much more.

Somehow, social networks did their work in comparative way. You have your right to do and say everything, until it fits to someone opinion. And that someone has no inhibitions to use his/her power to show you, that until you will not change your subject of manifestation and your opinions, you will not get same right like others. Welcome to reality of 21st century. Freedom of speech is just word on paper and who is considered like ineligible, will not be able to be a part of this paper.

Luckily, there are still people strong enough to keep their values, their voice and they do not pay attention and their power to fight just against their virtual and real enemies, but fight for everything what is worthy.

I have many questions to concrete people, who are "Up". Is it not hypocritical, that you try to decide for women when and what movie they can see, even you try to decide, if body inside her body is real human being, even you try to decide what kind of right does she have, and still talk about women rights? What women rights do you fight for? We always talk about human rights and our only way for fighting for this rights is breaking down rights of other humans. You talk about rights of human groups, of religion groups and still you try to block them and try to take their rights of expression down. What kind of human rights are you fighting for?

Is it truly woman right, that she treat herself just like pot of something and have we not all right to give a life to other women and men? Are we not all people from the beginning? So what kind of human and women rights do you fight for?

I have two siblings. One with mental illness, one who was not planned and now I take care of her. And do you know what? I would not give them up, no matter what. Love is what plays main part in life.  Women power is not based on what she cannot do, it is based on everything she can do. And if we think that abortion is way to empower, we lie to ourselves, because we treat women like underrated humans, who are not able and strong enough to fight for life.

Picture source: Unplanned Movie